1. I found out my 1st ex had cheated on me when we were together, then when we broke up he instantly got together with another girl, got her pregnant, he now has a kid. They broke up, and he called me, he wanted to hang out said he still “loved” me… he didn’t tell me he had a kid I found out through somebody else. He now wants me to act as his sons mum because the mother isnt really there.
2. My second ex called me (as well I know) said he wanted to hang out, ended up continuously insulted me.. because Im not as rich as him or because I don’t go to a private school like him… told him to fuck off and he cracked the shits at me.
3. My third ex called me.. wanted to get back together, wanted us to be honest and shit so I asked him who started all these rumors about me.. he told me it was one of my friends… and so then he wanted me to be honest with him so I told him I was bi romantic… Then a little while later, after new years he told me he stole money from his work. I told him it wasn’t right that I needed time to think if I wanted to get back with him, then he told me more about it, and i told him I didn’t want to talk to him, it wasnt right and i was going to get sucked in to any of it. And he cracked the shits and me and said he still loved me as well, and that I should of understood because he understood that I was bi romantic and shit…
4. One of my friends for over 5 years past away in a terrible motorbike accident up in queensland while she was on holiday. Now I have to have the trouble of replacing her parts in our class play and keeping everyone else together because I’m the stage manager as we are are didicating the play to her…
5. i’ve had to talk 2 of my good friends out of killing them selves because they both have depression, I stayed up all night for one of them, talking to them on the phone. I have never been so scared in my whole life.
6. my friend has been admitted to a hospital because shes been unwell, I didnt know she had gone and I still do not know when she will be back or if shes okay or what is going on.
7.I have been left by my self these whole holidays I havn’t been out with friends I havn’t gotten any calls like no texts (apart from when people want something).
8. My best friends and band members had a day to get together (which is really rare for us to be able to ) and did not invite me… and said me being negitive and upset these holidays im just being upset and sensitive. that hurt me… a lot. Because they lied to me about it and would not tell me until I clearly stated that I knew what they had done… but some how it ended up being my fault.
9. my anxiety has hit me hard… i’ve had the shakes for the whole holidays my hands have been trembling and I cant stop it.
10. I have not been able to sleep. I’ve been awake every night since the start of the holidays up and past 1am. My mind doesnt seem to want to shut off.
11. I have an impulse control disorder, its not self harm but some people see it as it. I’ve had it for years just now I know what it is.
12. I’m scared of what will come in this year, Im going to have no days off during the week…
13. People are just expecting me to be perfect because thats what people see me as… they put so much pressure on me, even during the holidays. I’m expected to be everywhere doing everything… all the time! Which is fine its just when you have no body there for you and no body helping you.
14. Ive been bullied, black mailed tormented threatened and almost gotten in to a fist fight once or two times…
And this was all in the last month.
Thats just all in the last month.